killing myelf...

h3y guys right now i feel like killing myself...no joke...life sucks right now...i hate it..and i'm not joking about killing myself...this isn't the first time i wanted to kill myself...i wake up at night and want to just get the knife and stab myself...literally...this is my last post till i find time again to post...for now all i leave is a couple of song lyrics:

I Caught Myself by Paramore

Down to you,
You're pushing and pulling me down to you.
But I don't know what I,
Now when I caught myself,
I had to stop myself.
I'm saying something that

I should have never thought.
Now when I caught myself,
I had to stop myself.
From saying something that
I should have never thought of you, of you.
You're pushing and pulling me down to you,
But I don't know what I want,
No I don't know what I want.

You got it, you got it,
Some kind of magic.
Hypnotic, hypnotic,
You're leaving me breathless.
I hate this, I hate this,
You're not the one I believe in.
With God as my witness.

Now when I caught myself,
I had to stop myself,
I'm saying something that
I should have never thought.
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself,
From saying something that
I should have never thought of you, of you.

You're pushing and pulling me down to you.
But I don't know what I want.
No I don't know what I want.
Don't know what I want.
But I know it's not you.
Keep pushing and pulling me down,

But I know in my heart it's not you.
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself,
From saying something that
I should have never thought.
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself,
From saying something that

I should have never thought of you.
I knew, I know in my heart it's not you.
I know but now
I know what I want,
I want, I want, Oh no,
I should have never thought.